October 21, 2009

• So Ernie's Dad is here at home again.  We have him on hospice.  We are keeping him as comfortable as we can.  They wrote a prescription at the hospital for morphine capsules.  what's wrong with that?  HE CAN'T SWALLOW...HE WENT IN THE HOSPITAL WITH ASPIRATION PNEUMONIA YOU DUMB ASS.  Are we not familiar with the liquid form of any medication?  Especially sublingual?

  anyways...

  He is pretty much incoherent.  without the morphine because we can't give him it for the aforementioned reason.  And very restless.  I gave him a xanax dissolved in a very tiny amount of warm water and he was able to take that with a minimum of coughing.  He's resting now and not trying to throw the covers off or fly out of bed.  Not that it matters if he does fall out of bed, he'd been doing that very nicely for two weeks previous to this one.

  I just want to be able to not feel the need to run in there and rescue superman from attempting to leap tall buildings in a single bound or whatever he's doing. 

   

  I'm fucking tired, I miss my Mom, my daughter is mad at me for reasons I can't divulge here and her friend is too.  I seem to be losing things at every turn.

  blah.

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